My immune system is so weak ,i have literally been fighting this new thing for 2 months from the first er visit of this new things i am trying to beat added to all of the chronic up and downs. I want a break , Feel like I am missing out on so much life going on in the world around me . On antibiotics for 2 full weeks starting christmas eve and spent everyday to ill to do anything for pleasure in any way, still ill . Ended the coarse and got worse with in a couple days. Now started a new medication and I just hope and pray every night before i sleep please give me some relief and please let me see a sunset , a beach something peaceful and relaxing before another months slips by.
I CAN NOT DO THIS ANYMORE I NEED TREATMENT I AM NOT ABLE TO GET IT BEEN NON STOP DOWN WARD SPRIL I HAVE BEEN AT THE ER /URGENT CARE ALOT AND I M ON MEDICINE I NEED CHEMO AND CANT DO THAT DUE TO MY IMMUNOGLOBLINS SO THE NEXT CHOICE IS IVIG BUT I LIVE IN A PLACE THAT THERE IS NOT REST PEOPLE DO NTO RESPECT OR JUST GIVE YOU DIGNIGTY PRIVACY AND REST. HOW CAN I DO THESE THINGS WITH OUT ANY SUPPORT . IM JUST TRYING TO STILL GET BETTER FOR MY LAST TO ER VISITS FOR SERIOUS ISSUES AND NEED TO TAKE MY MEDICNE AND REST. I GIVE UP WHERE I LIVE IS TERRIBLE I HAVE NEURO ISSUES WHEN I HAVE EMERGENCIES LIKE LAST NIGHT WHEN I LITERALLY LOST MY VISION FOR 2 HOURS NO ONE CAN EASILY GET TO METHEY COULD NOT FIT IN WHEN THERE IS NO OVERNIGHT PARIKING WHER I LIVE . NO ONE CARES . IM SO TIRED UNPREDICATIBLE COME UP UNEXPECTED JUST LIKE 2 TIME NOW IN A FEW WEEKS MY POSTASSIUM DROPPED I HAD TO CALL FOR HELP I DID NOT KNOW WHY I WAS SO ILL ONE FACITILTY SENT ME MY AMBULANCE TO ANOIGHTER AND THEN I GET BACK I AM NOT TO BE ALONE. BUT NO NO WHERE TO PARK . GIVE UP. ASSHOLES WON IM TO WEAK TO KEEP FIGHTHING
I HAVE NOT FAMILY MY FATHER DIED AT 38 I HAVE ONE BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER BUT I CAN NOT BE USEFULL.I HAVE NOT ENOUGH TO LIVE A HEALTHY LIFE AND I NEED TO DO SERIOUS MECICAL TREATMENT JUST TO HAVE A CHANCE. PEOPLE JUDGE AND HAVE NO IDEA I WORKED FULL TIME FULLTIME SINCE 15 8 HOUR DAY ONE THE BOOKS , WORKED ALOT WNET TO SCHOOL HAD DREAMS AND GOALS BIG ONES . TOOK RESPONSIBLITY OF MY GRANDMAOTHER UNTIL SHE PASSED OF COMPLICATIONS OF RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS. I HAD MANY RESPONSPILITIES AND DID THEM ALL UNTIL I ALMOST DIED OF A HEART CONDITINON AND CNS LUPUS IN SIX MONTH IS ENDURED CHEMO AND A HEART SURGERY I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING EVERY SINCE IT IS HARD TO FIGHT WHEN PEOPLE KEEP TREATING YOU LIKE YOU ARE NOTHGING AND THING YOU ARE A BUM WHEN THEY HAVE NOT IDEA HOW MUCH YOU HAVE REALLY DONE IN LIFE. AND EVERY DAY YOU ARE TRYING TO SURVIVE INA LIFE THREATENING ILLNESS THAT IS LITERALLY TRYING TO KILL YOU.;