BEHIND MY CLOSED DOOR

THROUGH ALL MY BATTLES TO SURVIVE

THERE WERE MANY DAYS I LAID AND CRIED

BEHIND MY CLOSED DOOR I CRIED AND CRIED

WHEN IT OPENED, OH HOW I LIED

FILLED WITH FEAR OF THE REJECTION I’D ENDURE

IT SEEMED EASIER TO MAKE BELIEVE I WAS OK

WHEN REALLY I WAS JUST WASTING AWAY

BUT, OH HOW IT WOULD HURT TO LEARN PEOPLE

KNEW I WAS ILL AND STILL BE LEFT BEHIND THE CLOSED DOOR

This is something one of my Doctor’s expressed to me:

My question was… I have told people many time’s I am not well , I have asked when are they going to see me and come over , that i am in need of help here and there.  The more i have to bring it up the sadder i get. The longer I am alone  and tell ,the more alone I feel .

Doctor’s Response:

You are Sick ,your job  is to get by each day and although you can never get better , your job is to do what you need to help your body.

You do not have the time or energy to make friendships right now. The one’s who are your friends will be there .  They need to pull together for you. You have already told them you are sick.  If they are your friends , they will come and see you without you telling them to, and help you. No one should expect you to do the work while you are ill. ?