I AM A MOTHER WHO’S LOVE IN LIFE IS MY CHILD

I WONDER WHO SHE WILL GROW TO BE

I WONDER IF I WILL BE THERE TO SEE

I THINK A LOT ABOUT THE DIGITS EIGHTEEN

MY GOAL FOR NOW IS TO MAKE IT TILL THEN

HOPING THAT TWENTY ONE BECOMES THIRTY

AND MOTHER IS THERE TO SEE

TO SEE WHO SHE WILL GROW TO BE

-CJP

(THIS WAS WRITTEN BEFORE MY CHILD WAS 18 NOW 25 !!, THIS WEIGHS ON MY MIND ALL THE TIME, NOT BEING THERE TO SEE. ALSO GIVE ‘S US MORE FIGHT SO WE CAN SEE. OUR CHILDREN GIVE US MUCH MORE STRENGTH, I BELIEVE THAN BEING ALONE. I DO NOT KNOW IF I WOULD HAVE AS MUCH COURAGE WITHOUT HER. I WANT TO KNOW SHE IS HAPPY, HEALTHY, WISE , SUCCESSFUL ETC. AND KNOW SHE WILL BE OK. I KNOW ALL PARENTS FEEL THIS, I MAY THINK  THESE THOUGHTS  MUCH MORE OFTEN DUE TO MY DISEASE. BUT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN ANYDAY EVEN IF WE THINK WE ARE FINE, SO CHERISH EVERY MOMENT THEY ARE ALL SPECIAL MOMENTS. I WANT TO SEE, SEE WHO SHE WILL GROW TO BE.

 Can I have children if I have lupus?

Twenty years ago the answer would have been “no.” But today, successful pregnancy and childbirth are possible. It is wise for lupus patients to be in the care of a high-risk ob/gyn.